I'm over it

I definitely the guy in the relationship. I'm the one always messing things up and NEVER seem to learn from anything!?!!? Who does things like that?! I've made the same mistake 3 times and this 3rd time almost left me alone miserable and depressed. I'm done messing up. What the hell is wrong with me!? I have an amazing person who wants to spend the rest of his life with ME. THHEEE most fucked up girl on this planet. Probably not so. BUT CLOSE ENOUGH! I'm done. No more. Michael is my whole world and there is nobody else i want to be with. NOBODY! EVER! He's it for me for the rest of my life. I'm going to grow old with this man and sit with him on a rocking chair on our porch when were old and gray. No doubt about it. I love him to the death and he loves me enough to give me chance after chance after chance. There's no way I'm letting him go. I'm so over it. I've become the smartest girl over night ha ha. I've learned my lesson. Lord, help me show him with all my being that he is who i want and allow us to spend our lives together.

-Maturity-

Maturity is the ability to control anger and settle differences without violence.
Maturity is patience, the willingness to pass up immediate pleasure in favor of long term gain.
Maturity is perseverance, the ability to sweat out a project or a situation in spite if heavy opposition and discouraging setbacks.
Maturity is the capacity to face unpleasantness and frustration, discomfort and defeat without complaint or collapse.
Maturity is being big enough to say "I was wrong." And, when right need not experience the satisfaction of saying "I told you so!"
Maturity is the ability to make a decision and stand by it. The immature spend their whole lives exploring endless possibilities and then do nothing.
Maturity means dependability, keeping ones word and coming through in a crisis. The immature are masters of the alibi! They are confused and conflicted. Their lives are a maze of broken promises , former friends, unfinished business and good intentions that never materialize.
Maturity is the art of living in peace with what we cannot change, the courage to change what should be changed and the wisdom to know the difference

EBAY, TREASURE CHEST, MONEY, THE HOMELESS

*So I'm officially addicted to eBay now? ugh. I'm so lame. I sold my first item for 18 bucks ha ha. It was a Nightmare Before Christmas record that I've had for years. I can't listen to it because i don't have a record player. It was fun though :). EH it's better than being addicted to my space. At least i can make money out of it ha ha.

*I think I'm going to buy a big treasure chest and start buying household appliances to save for when i get married. That way i can actually ask for things I'd LOVE to actually have and won't get 3 of the same thing. Who needs 3 toasters? I sure as heck don't. I don't even like toast.....that much. I've decided that i really want my wedding on the beach and that i want Clarissa to be my maid of honor. She's the girl that knows me best and loves me most. Appreciates me to the fullest and lets me be who i am. Who else better than her? No one else THAT'S WHO! :)

*Money's such a pain in the behind! Why can't our currency be of ....rocks...shells....sand? But then i guess if those things were our currency they'd clear out all the beaches huh? Why are we all so greedy? Why does money have to revolve around our survival? Makes me sick. Nothing less than sick.

*Just because you liked something before someone else doesn't mean that person copied you. Ewe, get over yourself. Like you're the finder of all things ? Spare me, please.

*What's with homeless people? Are they really homeless? ARE THEY? or are they choosing to not take responsibility to try to live their life? You tell me because, quite frankly, seems like a bunch a rebelling pains in the ass who never got off their high horse and now they're asking for change and living in and out of homeless shelters, boxes, tents, parks and wherever else they decided to land.

****nothing in this blog was said out of anger or hate ha ha :)