I'm over it

I definitely the guy in the relationship. I'm the one always messing things up and NEVER seem to learn from anything!?!!? Who does things like that?! I've made the same mistake 3 times and this 3rd time almost left me alone miserable and depressed. I'm done messing up. What the hell is wrong with me!? I have an amazing person who wants to spend the rest of his life with ME. THHEEE most fucked up girl on this planet. Probably not so. BUT CLOSE ENOUGH! I'm done. No more. Michael is my whole world and there is nobody else i want to be with. NOBODY! EVER! He's it for me for the rest of my life. I'm going to grow old with this man and sit with him on a rocking chair on our porch when were old and gray. No doubt about it. I love him to the death and he loves me enough to give me chance after chance after chance. There's no way I'm letting him go. I'm so over it. I've become the smartest girl over night ha ha. I've learned my lesson. Lord, help me show him with all my being that he is who i want and allow us to spend our lives together.